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Embracing Your True Spiritual Identity: Moving Beyond Church Expectations

Written by Stephanie Hicks | Feb 4, 2025 7:48:46 PM

For so long, many of us have measured our faith by how well we fit within the expectations of our church communities. We were taught that being a “good Christian” looked a certain way—attending services regularly, praying a specific way, believing without questioning, and following unwritten rules about how we should think, feel, and live.

But what happens when those expectations don’t align with who you truly are?

This month, we’re exploring the journey of making peace with your authentic self—spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. If you’ve ever felt like you’re constantly striving to meet religious standards that don’t resonate with your soul, I want you to know this: You are not alone. God created you with purpose, and your journey of faith is meant to be deeply personal, not just a performance to please others.

Let’s explore how to embrace your true spiritual identity and move beyond the weight of church expectations.

Recognizing When Church Expectations Are Holding You Back

Church expectations aren’t necessarily bad—structure, tradition, and community can be beautiful parts of faith. But when these expectations become rigid, judgmental, or disconnected from your lived experience, they can lead to feelings of shame, guilt, or inauthenticity.

Here are some signs that you might be struggling under the weight of church expectations:

1. You Feel Like You’re “Not Enough” Spiritually

No matter how much you pray, read scripture, or serve, you still feel like you’re falling short. You might carry guilt for not being “on fire” for God in the way others expect.

2. You Hide Parts of Yourself

Do you feel the need to filter your thoughts, emotions, or experiences when you’re around church members? If you fear judgment or rejection for expressing doubts, struggles, or differing beliefs, this could be a sign that you’re not fully free to be yourself.

3. You’ve Outgrown Certain Teachings

Faith is meant to evolve, but some church environments resist change. If you find yourself questioning old beliefs or developing a deeper, more nuanced faith, you may worry that you no longer “fit in.”

4. You Feel Spiritually Disconnected

If your relationship with God feels distant, it might not be because you lack faith—but because you’ve been practicing faith in a way that doesn’t align with who you truly are.

5. You Crave a More Authentic Faith

Deep down, you may long for a spiritual life that feels more honest, liberating, and deeply personal. This longing isn’t a sign of rebellion—it’s an invitation to rediscover faith in a way that feels true to you.

Embracing Your True Spiritual Identity

Once you recognize that you’ve been living under expectations that don’t serve your authentic faith, the next step is to make peace with your true spiritual identity.

Here’s how you can begin this journey:

1. Give Yourself Permission to Explore

Faith is not a one-size-fits-all experience. It’s okay to ask questions, wrestle with doubt, and explore different ways of connecting with God. Your spiritual path is uniquely yours.

2. Identify What Feels Authentic to You

Take time to reflect on what aspects of faith bring you peace, joy, and connection. Ask yourself:

  • What spiritual practices feel natural and life-giving?
  • What beliefs resonate deeply with my soul?
  • Where do I feel closest to God?
3. Release the Fear of Judgment

One of the hardest parts of embracing your true spiritual identity is the fear of what others will think. But remember this: Your relationship with God is not up for debate. People may not understand your journey, and that’s okay. You were not created to fit into someone else’s expectations—you were created to live in truth.

4. Find Safe, Supportive Spaces

You don’t have to navigate this journey alone. Seek out communities, mentors, or spiritual care coaches who encourage authenticity and honor your evolving faith. There are people who will love you for who you are, not who they expect you to be.

5. Trust That God Loves the Real You

At the core of this journey is a truth that cannot be shaken: God delights in the real you. Not the performance. Not the polished version. The real, questioning, evolving, growing you. Let that truth guide your steps.

You’re Not Alone: A Reminder of Hope

 

 

If you’ve struggled with church expectations and wrestled with feeling “not enough,” I want you to hear this:

  • You don’t have to earn God’s love. It’s already yours.
  • Your faith doesn’t have to look like anyone else’s. It’s personal.
  • You have permission to grow, evolve, and explore. That’s what faith is meant to do.

Making peace with your authentic self doesn’t mean abandoning faith—it means embracing it in a way that aligns with who God created you to be.